In a post about our social networking these days on Tweetage Wasteland (a blog I can recommend to anyone), Internet Superhero possed the question as to whether he was more connected since he started spending time on the internet. His answer was that he is more connected to people he didn't know and equally connected with those he did, but that he is less connected with himself. And that was very much an aha! moment for me.
It is true that I have done all I need to do, made great friends on and off line and connected with them all. Where did I find the extra time though? Largely, I took from my own time. Now it might be argued that spending time with friends, or time on a hobby, or improving a skill, is actually time spent on yourself. Let me tell you, it isn't.
When we relax and do nothing but spend time with out family, reading a book we meant to get to for eons, listening to some music, jotting down those stray thoughts in our journal in order to clear our hearts and minds, or watching a sunset, when we are obligation free and attending to something that we want to rather than something that we feel we have to... In other words, when we are doing nothing much except being, relaxing and being in the moment, THEN and only THEN are we actually spending time on ourselves.
The last 3 months I have been really busy cleaning out, not only my physical space, but also my mental space. One of the things that I have done is to let go of my excessive amount of activities. Most of these never use to be a problem, but 2 things came up during my simpler time:
1. I have found my calling and as you all should know by now, I am going to be yoga teacher. But I don't want to be just a yoga teacher. I want to be a great yoga teacher. Which means that I need to get down and study, or practice. Which of course I am doing, enjoying it immensely and which is also part of the reason why I have not been able to blog as much.
2. I have come to realise that the time I spend with Guppy, needs to be time spend with Guppy (the same goes for whatever I spend time on of course, but Guppy is # 1). With all the work that I am putting into my studies, I have become aware that often, I am not spending time with her per say, but rather worrying about when I am going to get time to finish my blog. Well, not just the blogging, there are other things that I want to get too as well, and I am addressing each of these things. What I am saying is that I use to enjoy blogging, now I would rather spend time with Guppy. I would love to be able to do both, unfortunately though, my time is largely being taken up in the day, so something has to go.
I have addressed several situations in my life, getting rid of things one by one in order to make sure that I draw the line of what I am able, or should, be doing, in the correct place. So far I have not yet drawn that line. It seems that with every discarding and simplification in my life, there is more to be had.
So, once more, I am taking a sabbatical, but this time from blogging itself. I have decided to make it a month once more, just because that seems like a safe amount of time. This time though, it is a complete sabbatical. I will only be posting again on the 6th of October. If you would like to connect with me in another space, I will still be available on Facebook and Twitter (not constantly, but often enough). Of course, I now also have a blog on my website, which you can also check out from time to time, although posts will only be once a week. I will still check in every once in a while, read a few posts and make a few comments, but you will see me when you see me, rather than me being regular about it.
I have always craved a rather simple life, and it seems that what I wanted might be even simpler than I thought.
Until I return I trust everyone will keep up the fort (Marie - thanks for my award. I will attend to it as soon as I return).
* namaste *
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